Okay, here we go.
Well, I am not so good in starting things. Sometimes I am, but then I found it difficult to finish what I have started.
First comes first, I am not English, yet I want to write in English, so more people can understand me. I know this is going to make it difficult for me to express myself sometimes, but hey, that's just me, I always make things difficult...:))
So, I am Erika, 23 years old and I am Hungarian.
I am a self diagnosed aspie. I never had the diagnosis because up until like four months ago, I didn't know myself, the reason of me being so "awkward" therefore I never even thought about going to see a doctor about it. I would like to get a diagnosis now, but I can't afford it.
Most of the times I hidden my awkwardness pretty well, and blurred into the society. Up until 2-3 years ago, I was sure I was very friendly, made friends easily and was sociable. But then, it slowly, the little bits made a whole picture, my mask fell off, and for the first time I could see, what an amazing actress I was, that I was able to even fool myself, acting like I knew how to make friends. I never really had friends. I had a very few, and even those disappeared by time. Now, I guess I could say I have maybe one or two friends, but even with them, I can't really say, I feel completely accepted or respected for that matter.
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